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ANON: A SEX ADDICTS RECOVERY BLOG
rcscotch99
Feb 13, 20246 min read
Post 10: Comedown
Got high on marijuana last night, reefers. It was great. I realized a lot has to do with the strain, and how it's grown. Weed isn't just...
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rcscotch99
Feb 12, 20247 min read
Post 9: Cunning, Baffling, Powerful
Fantasy today. Distracted by the sound of high heels on wood floor, like a siren's call. Depressed today. Anxious today. Shame. When...
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rcscotch99
Feb 7, 20247 min read
Post 8: Fantasy
Been plagued by it lately, and always, can't seem to shake it. It's always about one person, my ex, sex with whom I can't stop thinking...
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rcscotch99
Feb 5, 20246 min read
Post 7: Some Moodiness
Still haven't fully recovered from the spiral I went into a few days ago. I haven't made the calls I'm supposed to make and I haven't...
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rcscotch99
Feb 2, 20246 min read
Post 6: A Complete Mental Relapse
Not long after I wrote that last post I smoked some weed and had a complete mental breakdown. I went into a shame spiral which I've been...
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rcscotch99
Feb 2, 20243 min read
Post 5: A Journal Insight
Got into a foul mood tonight which I really could see into: something about rigidity, and masturbation, not letting myself, not letting...
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rcscotch99
Jan 31, 20245 min read
Post 4: Shame and Fear
I recently reconnected with a woman from an old writing group. I used to have a crush on her. She reached out to me and asked me if I...
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rcscotch99
Jan 30, 20246 min read
Post 3: Cannabis and Ketamine
Did my routine last night: I've been taking ketamine troches for the last year and lately I've been dancing as it kicks in, then smoking...
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rcscotch99
Jan 29, 20244 min read
Post 2: The Gambler
Dostoevsky walks into a casino and plays roulette, hoping a win will solve his problems. Instead he's besieged by more. I go to the...
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rcscotch99
Jan 29, 20246 min read
Post 1: An Overview
This blog has been percolating for some time, but it's only after the frustration of not doing it overwhelms the fear of doing it that I...
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