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ANON: A SEX ADDICTS RECOVERY BLOG
rcscotch99
May 26, 20246 min read
Post 30: More
Yesterday I went to a friend's wedding via Zoom. He was in my home group but he moved away recently and we haven't been in touch, until...
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rcscotch99
May 25, 20247 min read
Post 29: Microdose
I need to journal more about my experience with microdosing. I didn't journal at all this week. I didn't write at all this week. I wrote...
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rcscotch99
May 12, 20245 min read
Post 28: Dating Fun
It's been about 3 weeks since my last post. I started a new job which is taking up a lot of time and energy, and I'm still dating. My...
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rcscotch99
Apr 18, 20247 min read
Post 27: Triggered
Didn't get ghosted but she called it quits. That's not what I got triggered about but I wanted to let you know what happened. She said...
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rcscotch99
Apr 13, 20244 min read
Post 26: Some Updates
Turns out I wasn't ghosted. She messaged me three days later and apologized, said she got sick and busy. I told her sorry that happened...
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rcscotch99
Apr 8, 20245 min read
Post 25: Dating/ghosted
Got on a dating app. Had a conversation with a woman where I probably shared too much, and she probably shared too much. We planned to...
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rcscotch99
Mar 29, 20243 min read
Post 24: Dating
I signed up for a dating app. To my surprise I felt relief. By signing up I was telling myself "I'm not perfect, but I'm good enough."...
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rcscotch99
Mar 25, 20245 min read
Post 23: Overwhelmed
Supposed to start work soon, a regular 8-5. I've never done that before and I'm freaking out about it. I'm supposed to go to lunch with a...
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rcscotch99
Mar 20, 20243 min read
Post 22: Respect 2
Respect comes in again when I'm at the gym and I see these lovely bodies and I think I can keep looking and it's no problem. And that...
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rcscotch99
Mar 19, 20244 min read
Post 21: Respect
Rambling rambling and just need to ramble. Last night I smoked too much, took a gamble, wound up with it all in shambles. This time I was...
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rcscotch99
Mar 15, 20243 min read
Post 20: Refreshed/Shame
Great insights into my freeze response, and more insights into my fear around making choices and perfectionism, feeling free, then...
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rcscotch99
Mar 12, 20243 min read
Post 19: A Mixed Bag
Feeling stressed and overwhelmed lately. I'm waiting to hear about a job offer and I feel like I'm waiting to be assassinated. My whole...
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rcscotch99
Mar 4, 20245 min read
Post 18: In The Dumps
Or at least nearby. I have good moments, almost like high highs, followed by bad and I don't know why. I can't keep myself stable. Friday...
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rcscotch99
Mar 1, 20246 min read
Post 17: Fun
In therapy today we did some more IFS, and I met this 19 year old part who doesn't like the exile much, and when asked if there was...
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rcscotch99
Feb 26, 20248 min read
Post 16: Some Grief and Rumination
In this program I identify as a sexual anorexic, which means I deprive myself of love and sex, which may seem strange for a sex addict,...
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rcscotch99
Feb 22, 20243 min read
Post 15: Breakthrough
Last night I was meditating and I kept drifting away, and I thought, "why don't I try to concentrate?" Before then it seemed like I can...
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rcscotch99
Feb 21, 20244 min read
Post 14: Therapy
Strange feelings and little perspective today. Woke up beating myself up. Was supposed to hear back about a job but haven't. Was afraid...
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rcscotch99
Feb 19, 20247 min read
Post 13: More High Times (and some low)
I want to experience it all, the full gamut, the highs and lows, not just the highs, or just not the lows. It's all part of being human...
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rcscotch99
Feb 16, 20246 min read
Post 12: Still Learning
Just like the title says, still learning. Just behaved in a way like I used to, looking at my naked self in the mirror, wanting to send...
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rcscotch99
Feb 14, 20245 min read
Post 11: Hurt
The thing I run from, the thing I'm afraid of. The thing I don't want anyone to see. Got to see it in therapy. Gotta turn and face the...
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